The morning after the day you ran away and you were found.
The morning after I had to absorb you hits, bite, curses, lies, spitting and kicking.
The morning after I and your mom had to take you to my house and put you in an empty room and lock the door.
The morning after I slept on the floor, right outside the door that held you.
The morning after and my arms are scared and bloody from the night before.
The morning after my ex-wife and I united to save our one and only daughter.
The morning after I watched text message after text message roll in to your cell phone from boys promising you drugs, alcohol and fun if only you would talk to them.
Yes this is the morning after all that but it is also the first day of getting clean. This is the first day that you see that I would suffer all that to keep you safe. This is the first day of many to come where you will be safe. This is the first day that it will be ok to be a 16 girl.
Someplace in that tangle of rage and darkness is the young woman that my daughter turned into.
I hope to meet her some day.
I hope to hug her with tears as happy as the sad ones I shed.
Here's to hope.
-Your loving Dan
I know you don't know that Tori, I know you don't feel that right now but let's hope you do after all is said and done, lets hope you do.
19 comments:
Oh man, I feel your pain. Hang in there.
You, your daughter and ex wife are in my thoughts. Recovery is a process for the whole family. 10 years ago we went thru similar drama with one of our children. I am happy to say he is doing well.
i was just like your daughter
keep fighting for her.
keep telling her you love her.
hold on tight.
it's going to be a wild ride
Never, ever give up. We care.
Keep fighting for your daughter. I lost my only child, Bo, to a drug overdose 5 years ago when he was 16. If I knew then what I know now maybe he'd be alive.
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Best of luck to you all during this difficult time. Thank you for sharing and I hope that she is able to get the help she needs to find herself.
I feel your pain. I am a recovering addict, with almost 8 years clean, and I know the horrors and pain your daughter is going through. If there is anything I can do for you, please don't hesitate to contact me. My email is hldafydd at gmail dot com.
So like the woman before I was lost, and also found. The thing that saved my daughter was my ability to make her know that I could affect total change over night. That if something was happening to her I could and would make it stop. Even if it meant selling everything we had and moving to idaho to keep her safe. She also had a trust fund and I promised her she could use it for college or rehab you choose. Good luck my friend I can tell from you blog that you have the intent needed to make this turn into a positive agent for change. YOU RULE!!
Oh this breaks my heart. This will be a tough road, but she is so lucky to have a dad like you
this may sound silly right now, but have you seen the movie "Agusta, Gone"? you can find it here on IMDB: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0495023/
i found it both inspiring and pretty realistic. i don't have much else to say, just that the movie truly impacted me. i thought i'd pass along the reccommendation. my thoughts are with you and Tori.. keep your chin up, if you keep fighting, things will get better. <3
I follow you on twitter and now I'm following your blog. I have your family in my prayers. Your daughter is lucky to have a father who won't give up on her. Hang in there and the best of luck. I hope you find comfort too for your pains, just as your daughter will surely find some in you for hers.
Please let her know that I love her and think she's beautiful. Your family is in my thoughts.
~Turi / Tomyris
I have followed this experience on Twitter. You and your family are in my prayers. Recovery is hard but worth it to come through. I hope all goes well for you and for Tori.
Recovery is a long road, and you cannot do it for Tori, even though you would. Tori is the one who has to make the choice to turn her life around. I did it,and so can she! Please give her my email, and let her know someone else has been through it too. vclives@hotmail.com.
I will be praying for her to see the path that leads to happiness. Don't ever stop loving her, even if she doesn't see it right away. Love has a way of breaking through.
Best of luck to you and your family.
Virginia
damn yo, you need to be a lover not a fighter.
i was a street kid once too. its a very aluring life and like the drugs will also take withsrawls to get over. they will be more soul seated than anything but she needs to get out and away from everything that inspired this horrible downward spiral. you should push the SCA involvment more to her as well. history can be a great "drug" as well. thats where i found my healing light. without the SCA i dont know where i would be today. if you would like some first hand account help or just a shoulder feel free to e-mail me Dabomb_shell at hotmail dot com.
That is heartbreaking. anything you need, I am here for you, and so are all your other friends. I will keep all three of you in my thoughts
Lyn
I have read what everyone has said to you. I too wish to offer my support to you. This will be toughest battle you and your ex-wife will ever undertake. But it is worth every painfull thing said to the two of you.
Recovery is a process, take little steps, then bigger ones.
And always remember there are people who have been exactly where you are today, have the strength to ask for help from us. We want to help. Ask us.
Found you through a friend up in WA. I'm happy that you found Tori and to hear that your ex-wife and you are working together on this, that's so important.
I will keep your family in my prayers. It's a long tough road, sounds like you have many around that will assist in any way needed.
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